Thursday, April 17, 2008
living my dull life in a colourful world**
Today, is 17th of April. Yet another 17th. 23mths.
Yet, it ended up in tears and heartaches. But i guess i can see the clear picture now. I guess i can never entrust my life in a person who doesn't reflect on oneself and do not try to improve things on their side and wallow in self-despair.Yes, you know u always vent your anger and frustrations on me. Don't i have such moments too? You said u wanted to talk. And all i hear is prejudice embedded deep in your heart. I don't blame you too... But this period of self-despair is too long.
you once said i always take you for granted. But i guess, you do take me for granted at times too. Why do i always allow you to have the upperhand in our relationship? Come and go as you wish, leaving my heart to crash. I thought my tears went dry... But your words today pierced my heart a thousand times, a million... It hurt so bad. so bad i could feel my heart wrenched and ripped apart.
Only blaming others and not wanting to see how you can improve the situation on your part, or even attempting to do so... I cannot accept this. You lost me, not because you have no money or that you don't have a degree. You lost me, because of your attitude towards this issues.
Perhaps i can never understand your pain. And perhaps
YOU will never understand mine too.
I'm sorry for wasting 2 years of your life. I can never be the one that brings you happiness. For i have never seen or heard you laugh like you had before. When was the last time we had a nice date? When was the last time we had a nice dinner together? When was the last time you planned to bring me out? When was the last time you were interested to meet me? I'm sorry if you did but i didn't feel it.
That's great. 17th April. A great day for a great ending.
love,
ling ying
' Fly Away
Thursday, April 17, 2008
