Saturday, January 05, 2008
living my dull life in a colourful world**
Phew. It was definitely a long and tiring day for me!
Woke up late this morning cos it was so cold and cozy.. so i overslept! i pressed the alarm button cos it was downright irritating!! ahhaha.. Woke up only at 8.30 when i was supposed to meet stephen at the home at around 9.30 - 10am.. But i wasn't too late.. i reached the home at around 1030. So it was alright..
Adventurous LY brought stephen out after settling his DVD stuff, helping him do labeling and recording and stuff.. and we set off for AMK MRT station. i can't believe i pushed him out so far, so adventurous lo, thinking back now.. haha.. Anyway, i'm strong so that's lucky.. Ate at a food court at AMK Ave 10 and it was nice despite the hard hard meat from the Bah Kut Teh stall! $4.30 for so little meat and a bowl of rice! Inflation inflation.. but that's like too ex! (in my opinion) Met really nice people from the sliced fish mee/rice stall we sat in front of.. It's really nice to see such people around..
Anyway, so we went on to the MRT station. Guess what. The lift to Marina Bay side was under maintenance. It didn't help that there was the middle railway which we couldn't cross. -_-. So, we waited like some 7 minutes i think for the train to go YCK so we can cross the platform to be able to board the train going to Marina Bay. Luckily it wasn't that crowded.. There were nice people tho, compromising and even offering their seats to me but it was alright.. i couldn't sit anyway.. haha... Appreciated them all.. minus those stares from people.. oh ya! so coincidental! so pammie on the train.. i was still wondering if it was her till she turned her head.. haha..
Went Tampines Mall.. walked around got the stuff he wanted, took photos and had dinner before heading back to AMK.. Pushed him back too cos it was not raining.. Actually i suggested taking cab but he insisted it was better taking MRT cos it's much cheaper and i think he likes it too.. I thought we could use one card to scan but ya in the end got 'caught in the act' and i had to quickly go get him the card lo. But we used one card to get into the AMK station!! shh.. hahha.
Looking at stephen, i really felt sad for a moment.. he is such a strong person who has really the determination and will to do so much. He may be physically handicapped but he definitely does not allow himself to be mentally handicapped too. Yes.. i really feel so proud of him.. But i think he really aged alot.. Perhaps it's because i haven't seen him for quite some time, i think more than a year... and i can really see the difference.. But he is really a positive person.. i think it's really an asset, and something that i must learn from him... He is not educated, but he keeps himself abreast of the current issues, keeps himself updated to the latest news and etc.. definitely a strong fighter of life..
Talked to Naimin.. and yea, i think i really really enjoy what i do.. and i would go all out to fight for things i feel it's right.. I agree that not everybody can accept the things i do.. and not everyone can understand why i would go all out to do such things for them.. I know i only play a small part in their lives but i really wish to just bring them that little joy and good memory.. It's only when you start giving can you receive.. giving as in giving without expecting any returns in anyway.. be it emotional or materialistically...
Baby.. u know how i feel.. i just felt so hurt u actually said all those.. i just couldn't understand why you can't understand that i couldn't have been able to msg you while wheeling stephen.. it's so rare that we meet and i just wanna dedicate the time to him. I know you are worried... and perhaps it's my fault that i didn't secure you.. but i know stephen for some years now and have been out with him.. i know how he is like.. I'm sorry.. I really wanted you to accept what i was doing... Know u weren't feeling well and i'm sorry i wasn't there to comfort you.. You had your half day off.. but it was so sudden.. and i had already informed u of my schedule the day before.. baby.. if it was someone else i would probably have cancelled it.. but it's really so difficult to meet him.. he is so old already.. i'm just doing a little part you know.. i really wished you could accept what i was doing.. sorry dear.. i didn't know you would be so ill.. *hugs* sorry to make u so worried for me.. (': really wish we could work things out..
(i know u prob won't be reading this anyway... but if u ever do.. i really hope u could feel what i'm feeling dear)
then i went to JT for meeting - evaluating the event on 31st dec. Not too bad, rather productive and efficient though it took like 3 hours..Thanks to qiu rong laoshi and qiyou uncle for fetching me back! i'm really tired!!
take care dearies!
' Fly Away
Saturday, January 05, 2008
