Tuesday, July 31, 2007
living my dull life in a colourful world**
Maybes, ifs and next time.
Thanks for all the love, care, concern, sweet nothings, presents, surprises you have showered me the past year.. Those were the happiest times of my life despite all the traumatising events from my family. Thanks to your family who have loved me too.. for all the words of concern they have given..
Sorry for you not feeling secure and loved. I know nothing about you, know nothing about your expectations of a girlfriend. I thought i had done it right this time round.. but still no. You said i never seem interested to know, but you never seem like u wanted to tell me. I agree there were times u wanted so much to share your joy and sorrows with me but i weren't around.. Too late. The last time you wanted to share your joy, i was doing my facial. The last time you wanted to surprise me, my phone died. The last time you wanted to share your sorrow, you shut yourself out and cried all by yourself. Thanks for all the changes you have made for me.. no thanks to me for not doing anything right..
you're right, everything's too late now. Sorry for all the pressure felt..
maybe it's in my character.. i never like to bother anyone if i can take the stress/problem/pressure by myself.. When you ask me to speak, i was never quite sure of what to say.. I'm just quiet. You may say why i can laugh with my friends and seem so happy and engrossed.. I can say.. i'm usually not the one talking.. I always believed that silence shouldn't bother couples. I'm just glad you're here with me. When i hold you in my arms, and when we walk down hand-in-hand, there's a kind of simplicity in the happiness and love felt which gives me so much strength and motivation. I'm sorry i don't have a colourful life to tell you about.. to share with you..
I thought things would have changed.. and i believed so much in us.. but *pOof* everything's gone now.. but i'll be fine.. LY is strong, and perhaps independent. I will step into the future bravely! For everything that comes your way, will leave you one day too. ( :
thanks, for all the beautiful memories. whether you read this or not, i wish you all the very best.. in the pursuit of your dreams and aspirations. Thank you...
' Fly Away
Tuesday, July 31, 2007
