Tuesday, April 03, 2007
living my dull life in a colourful world**
The time has come. We have parted. So abruptly. How abrubtly.
Lost for words. It came too fast, too sudden and forced.
Whatever that we have done, that we have worked hard for, was just blindly ignored and shadowed by the prejudices that they have/had towards you.
Nothing appreciated.
Nothing understood.
Nothing seen.
Nothing heard.
Nothing felt.
Just plainly reduced to nothing. ZERO.
What about me? Haven't i been trying hard enough? I'm really trying... but
NO it's not important. That's not the point. No point trying because we're going to decide for you what's going to happen in your life. No point trying because we will help you decide what's 'BEST' for you. No point trying. cos they won't see.
Who are you to interfere in my affairs. Talk some sense into me then. What's wrong with us? Do you even care about this family? When all you do is to play computer games and show attitude when you're unhappy? When you don't even help out with household matters? When you don't even bother if we're so hungry and tired at all?
SO why bother about my affairs now?!! Does it make you pleased and happy? Who are you to control my life and to decide what i should do and what i should not?
I know i'm not as bright as you, i know i'm not as good. My results have always been the lousiest out of us 3. Perhaps being the most worrying one too. but so what? That is not a reason to deprive me of the control over my life!! I try hard the very least. I'm sorry i'm not born smart. But i seriously think that it's worse having such low EQ. i'm sorry but that's really how i feel. So what if a piece of paper can land yourself in your dream job, as a PROFESSIONAL. There's more to life than that. There's more to life that the material aspects.
Now that we've parted, it must PLEASE you to know that huh?
What goes around, comes around. It might not be in this life but it will, someday.
Who gives a damn about this damned materialistic world???Labels: disappointed, heartbroken
' Fly Away
Tuesday, April 03, 2007
