Saturday, June 10, 2006
living my dull life in a colourful world**
lylylylylyly!! what are you doing?!
feeling rather lonely and helpless now... i know i shouldn't be feeling like this..i really shouldn't..just hope i could just share this with somebody now...but i won't do this on blog. it's too personal...
really really really...like really touched to know this..like really.. Is heaven making fun of us or what? why? whywhywhywhywhywhy!! why do things always have to happen in this way...
i just had to feel like a spare tire..and outcast from your life...for so long..so long!!! and i felt i had no right and of no use to tell it to you because i'm probably a passing phase in your life...? I don't understand you..and how well do you understand me? What i'm looking for is nt just a superficial relationship...i know you have very good conditions..many people are attracted to you..i was too.. but you never seem to understand what i was looking for..i never felt secure with you around..?
but really, i'm seriously seriously seriously touched. i know i may have hurt you too that you didn't say..but i'm sorry. I do think about us sometimes and how it could have been.. but hey, it's the past now it's over... i should look forward..
and now, i do have someone who cherishes me, who loves me and treats me well.. i know it'll take time to reach our level of understanding of each other..considering that you have been through so much with me.. (sad to say but not me with you) but i think that's probably the best arrangement now?
i know it's hurting to say that..but i don't want to get hurt... and the feeling of uncertainty...and i hope that years down the road, i'll realise i was not wrong about this...
' Fly Away
Saturday, June 10, 2006
