Friday, July 29, 2005
living my dull life in a colourful world**
Hey all...
i'm in the APTS thingy. Each wk have to clock in 15 hrs. great..now perhaps i'll find my motivation to study.. But i have to say, i didn't quite like Mrs Woo's opening speech. The moment we went in to see her, she was like, " so how? do you all plan to study or what?" like hello, being in this scheme doesn't mean i didn't study lor..What do you know... Anyway i was initially bu shuang lah. But nvm.. Then right..she asked us to write her our proposed time table for studying lor..and asked when we could hand it to her..i said Monday..cos when we met her it was on a Thurs what..So like the next ideal day would be MOnday right..and she was like, " wah..need 3 days to draw up the timetable ah" wa lau..wat kind of attitude was that lor.. i mean it's kinda logical right.. Whatever.
Gd..i really hope i will feel damn motivated to study now. I'm beginning to lose hope..to give up on hope.. i don't know why..i'm damn tired.. mentally. Help...
I'm feeling terribly upset now. Because of many things. Maybe aggravated by PMS ba. sigh. why..why did things turn out like that? Ly..i'm so disappointed in you. I'm utterly disgusted by your actions lor..GQ..Gross. Ly..wish i could slap u in the face. Ly.. why were u so mei jue2 zhao4... ly..u're disgusting.
I'm such a coward. i don't even dare to face the issue bravely. I'm a coward. i am. i really am. I'm sorry. Really. I wish i could have the courage to say it..but i don't. I did wanted to care but i couldn't bring myself to do it. Ly..what have u turned into?
din join veg clan today. i now wish i could. but then agn. i could have spoiled the mood of everyone. i want to cry out loud now. i want a big hug now.i wish i could do that something..i wish.
i wish i had better brains.
maybe.. i should wish that i am never existant.
' Fly Away
Friday, July 29, 2005
