Wednesday, February 02, 2005
living my dull life in a colourful world**
Well..my hols hasn't been exactly good..not even near to the ideal one that i had in mind. Some Saturdays ago, i went to celebrate my grandpa's brother's wife's birthday..We're quite close to her in the sense that we usually make time down to her house to pay her a visit. She's usually home alone cos her daughter is working.. Saw her, took photo with her on my brother's camera fone..and so unexpectedly, she passed away the next day. This news came as a total shock to me.. The person that i saw yesterday, who was still doing so fine..just passed away...I was at a loss..I think all i did was that i kept on praying and praying for her... -shock-.
Went to work as usual the next day and went to her funeral after work. Although the coffin was 'open' as in u know what i mean lah hor, i didn't dare to step in to look. I didn't want to weep in there..Grieving is all part of a process to recover from this kind of thing..But we shouldn't stay in that mood for too long. It ain't healthy..really..
Sigh..somehow, i'm kinda immune to such things cos i've exposed to quite a bit of deaths in a few years time. Afterall, to learn how to live is to learn how to die. We shouldn't avoid the fact that we will also die one day. When that happens to me, i wouldn't want my loved ones to cry for me. It would just make it difficult for me to leave them. Was discussing with my sister why people always cry when people die.. Perhaps they just feel so sad cos the person whom they have such close emotional ties has left them for good. Why wouldn't they think that it might actually be better for them to go then to stay in this world full of crime, violence and..er..natural disasters? Well Well...just penning down my thoughts.. i think i shall end the entry here...
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' Fly Away
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
