Monday, December 09, 2002
living my dull life in a colourful world**
haix..i am having mixed feelings now..there are so many things happening around me..too fast.. i juz feel that my life is in a total mess.And who am i to blame?i really don't know what i should do right now..And if u have the chance, go listen to david tao's 'dear god'. it's really meaningful. i know running away from problems ain't gonna help..but somethings really ah..cannot be solved just like that..çoz somethings are juz beyond our(my) control..Even if we took the effort..it may not even matter at all..i want to cry..cry my hearts out..but, somehow, my tears won't come down...i just feel disappointed, hurt, tired..In life, there are lots of irony..and relate it to some of the incidents that has happened..it's such a big joke.haix..isn't it so..Then in life, you'll meet so many people who are such hypocrites..i mean it's really very upsetting sometimes lor..When a person tells u something and means another etc.. Where is the 'innocent' world? bUt still, there are people who really treat each other sincerely..like family, friends..etc..ya..Life..Can't we treat each other nicely?! and..I really dunno wad he's thinking..I really hate it this way..and i mean it..it makes me feel so..so...argH..Or is it just that i can't let go..If that is the case, i will..The problem is,i don't know if i can let it go or not..that's the worst thing man..haix...My family problems! it's really getting on my nerves..haIx..when can it end..This is what i call, lack of intelligence..i mean i'm not critisizing them..but it's actually a very small matter..but then, i dont'know why they have to blow up the matter..make me, my sis and cousin stuck in between..and cracking our brains to try and solve the problem... I mean..no one is perfect..they can be selfish etc..meanwhile....haix.i will sigh. =x
' Fly Away
Monday, December 09, 2002
