Friday, December 20, 2002
living my dull life in a colourful world**
It's been quite some time since we broke up. I know this may just be any other ordinary story that many people have encountered but to me....We broke up last year, because both of us felt funny. As in, there was a mutual feeling and we decided that we should break up and he suggested it first. When we broke up,he said, dOn't be so upset, CHEER UP. wow, let me tell u,i felt kinda hurt when i saw that. Cheer up.After that,i tried my best to forget about him.Just when i thought i had already forgotten about him,His e-mail came again,telling me that he still loved me and wanted to be with me again.In my heart,i was happy,but there was a kind of fear in my heart.Then we settled things out and he decided that we should just stay as friends.This happened several times..I told all these to my close friend,she encourage me to just forget about him.I tried,but i did not succeed.I really loved him a lot.I don't know what he feels towards me,and his attitude towards me,but i don't care that much.Nobody can stop me from loving him,right?hee.Although he has hurt me at times,i just can't seem to dislike him or whatever..i don't know. But i still think that he's a nice guy.He helped me along when i really needed help. He encouraged me,and urged me to continue when i was about to give up.He gave good advice to me.His words may be blunt at times but i know that he meant well.He can be really sweet and stuff..haix..Now..i am trying to forget about our past relationship,hee,also trying to accept other people. But deep down, i know that i still feel something for him..i don't have the guts to tell him that i still love him,that i still care for him..."In my heart there'll always be a place for you,for all my life"The only regret was that i did not know how to treasure what i had..But now, i've learnt my lesson and i treasure him as my beloved friend whom i know i can always rely on..
' Fly Away
Friday, December 20, 2002
