Studying was rather gd today. As in productive.

sian. project got ANOTHER B- sucks man. the feeling's really v.v.v.sian. argh. pukes.

yea, i know i'm not too bright. as always.

It's another Sunday. nope. It's another lazy Sunday.

Supposed to do some readings, which i did, a little. Yea, a little. haha. Sian I can't procrastinate further! i need to study! C'mon LY stop indulging in your post-exam mood!! sigh. There's so many things i wanna do and so many things i wanna go... I wonder if there's someone who's willing and able to accompany me then.

Perhaps, i was really a bad gf... Just thinking.

Anyways, saw dan today, with aloy and stanley, but i didn't go over to say hi cos abit paiseh also. haha.

Argh studying in school with friends tomorrow at 9.30am. bahhh.



if i had another chance, i would still choose to love u.

Today, is 17th of April. Yet another 17th. 23mths.

Yet, it ended up in tears and heartaches. But i guess i can see the clear picture now. I guess i can never entrust my life in a person who doesn't reflect on oneself and do not try to improve things on their side and wallow in self-despair.Yes, you know u always vent your anger and frustrations on me. Don't i have such moments too? You said u wanted to talk. And all i hear is prejudice embedded deep in your heart. I don't blame you too... But this period of self-despair is too long.

you once said i always take you for granted. But i guess, you do take me for granted at times too. Why do i always allow you to have the upperhand in our relationship? Come and go as you wish, leaving my heart to crash. I thought my tears went dry... But your words today pierced my heart a thousand times, a million... It hurt so bad. so bad i could feel my heart wrenched and ripped apart.

Only blaming others and not wanting to see how you can improve the situation on your part, or even attempting to do so... I cannot accept this. You lost me, not because you have no money or that you don't have a degree. You lost me, because of your attitude towards this issues.

Perhaps i can never understand your pain. And perhaps YOU will never understand mine too.

I'm sorry for wasting 2 years of your life. I can never be the one that brings you happiness. For i have never seen or heard you laugh like you had before. When was the last time we had a nice date? When was the last time we had a nice dinner together? When was the last time you planned to bring me out? When was the last time you were interested to meet me? I'm sorry if you did but i didn't feel it.

That's great. 17th April. A great day for a great ending.

love,
ling ying

两年了。充满着快乐与悲伤。从陌生人到男女朋友，到知己。。。 时间过得很快。

怎么别人的父母家人都能坦然的接受，承认儿女兄妹的另一半，但我却困难重重。有时有种被背叛的感觉。感觉很强烈。

当日，为什么哥哥要去责骂，恐吓他？一个为了迁就我，为我着想的人，而千辛万苦的，放工后，搭着一个半钟车程的巴士来到学校接我回家。隔天还得一大清早的爬起床，回到兵营。

一个常常问候家人近况的人。真心关心我和家人的人。

怎么回受到如此残忍的对待！！

心里有说不尽的愤怒和疑问。

家人背着我做出这么伤人的事，竟然没一声抱歉和解释。即使看到我伤心流泪，痛心的吃不下饭，却不闻不问。换来的，也只是黑脸及排斥。

你们是我家人。。。为什么伤我最深的也是你们！！



好几次，会不知觉的想起而掉泪。

心碎了。因为你们背叛了我对你们的爱与信任。

I so love this! Can anyone offer to buy me this? (: hahaha.

pretty sunrise. the next time i shall use the sunset/dusk feature to capture some more pretty sunrises. (:

Went to do interview with dor that day and i bought a new camera! NIkon Coolpix p50! It's really cool! sweet.




Finally! finished my presentation and also my 2 projects! one re and one geog. like WhopPeeY! (: cheers to doris dear for being so nice! haha.. and also my pretty RE group mates who are always so nice to me too! (:

My presentation that day i thought was alright.. but there are some cheaterbugs in class. HumPH! but guess what, they'll get their deserts man.

Hey Check out this site! Please help to promote lo! haha.. just trying for fun to see how things goes!

http://forbeautifulwomen.blogspot.com

Cheers,
Ling Ying

Finally! It's Friday! Thanks Doris dear for being so compromising! Hope the project turns out well! I'm quite happy with it leh. hahaha. Yep, we've slogged hard for it! So you better give us the grades! wahahaha. Anyway, thanks Doris cos i feel like she'd doing so many things!

Din go to school today cos I was so tired i fell asleep and didn't wake up in time to do my work. Jumped out of my bed at 6am and started chiong-ing. Glad i turned out alright! (: Managed to write the things i wanted to say. So i guess that's quite an achievement. Then started to do editing works with Doris through MSN! Sch's MSN super lousy. Can't send docs over! ):






I thought my heart was dead.





My tears fell again.

do you miss me?

I hate this time of the semester. Where i will feel stressed and more stupid and slow than ever. This totally sucks. Why am i so slow?! I think i should just hide myself in a cave.

I'm so tired... thinking and knowing how stupid i am. and i'm really physically drained too. Can't wait for Fri. Damn tired.





imissu.

Just a little girl in this world, still learning, growing, and experiencing life..
Keeping that little promise and agreement..
trying to be stronger.. ( :

happiness
health
semi-big bag
golden necklace
little miss CLUMSY
more intelligence

forbeautifulwomen

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