still loving you as much as ever...

transferring bits and pieces of our love into friendship...

Told myself not to cry anymore.. and they still lingered in my eyes.

I love u, and our irreplaceable love...

Never thought.

Never thought i would have to say goodbye,
Never thought we would have to part so soon,
Never thought my life was so much about you,
Never thought about believing you aren't mine no more.



but i'm in so deep,oooh, i'm sucha fool for you.

here i am, heartbroken.

Finally, u decided to let go.

From this point onwards, we'll move on in separate ways.

From now onwards, there'll be no turning back.

From today onwards, my heart is dead.



if love brings so much tears, why love at all.

i'm sorry i don't know why... i was just so disappointed. very very disappointed. Until my heart suddenly turned so cold.

Today's finance test was such a depressing and stressful experience. It's super gross. LIke yucks. Like failed totally. ): boOhoos. Hope i can pass and S/U it. Damn. There goes my minor. Whatever. Can someone please explain to me like what Minor in Urban Studies have got to do with Real Estate Finance? Oh, maybe learning things like Loanable Funds, Spot Rate, Forward Rate, Mortgage, Sinking Fund formulas can help us to know more about urban issues.

A: Oh, what do you think are the factors affecting urban trends and developments?
BL Here, the demand and supply of loanable funds is important, at a Forward Rate of 8%, we can thus equate x(1+x1)(1+x2)=x(1+x2)2 and there, we can see a trend that Urban Development is taking off at a rate of xx.
A: ?? crap. Take Geography. They do more practical studies on Urban Trends and Developments.

C'mon lah.. Another Pseudo minor module. WHAT?!

After that depressing test, and instant revelation of the answers, oh some guys sitting around us today went-

A: Eh I only got the last 2 questions wrong.
me and friend: ??!?!!
B: Eh, how much you got? I think i got like 15-19 lah!
C: I think mine's about 16-18.
me (thinking): Mine's the opposite. That's how many questions i got wrong.

Crap.

Wasn't feeling well today. Really don't know why... Finally, i think more or less i have decided on my economy and space. Now gotta brainstorm for more ideas. Damn tired. and damn unwell.

i'm not happy.. really... sigh.

why's my family like that? why can't they accept josh? damn

GE3226 was damn disappointing. I'm feeling a little upset.. and disappointed.. It doesn't help that i'm lagging so much behind my readings.. and my studies.. The feeling sucks man. ):

baby.. i need you. and of course, i need to pray.

Wow, this is my 401th post. hahaha.

Interesting day for me.

1. I got on to bus 10 today to go to school and went up the upper deck and sat on the left side, so i can still view TV mobile. Then suddenly out of a sudden, a man, a little plump, not too old, prob like late 20s to early 30s i guess came and sat at the seat in the same row but on the right. Then firstly i thought he was gonna get down the bus. But no. He looked over a few times, with a phone in his hands. I was kinda freaked out and felt uneasy cos he kept looking over. Irritated, i shifted myself all the way to the end, blocked by a girl sitting in front of me, which i thought was my saviour. And guess what, he turned and looked over TWICE. Like hello, what do you want. Then he finally got down. Heaved a sigh of relief (silently) and i just wanted to see how he looks like, maybe he looks really perverted or something so i peeped. And guess what. He was looking out for me again. Like *ee*.

2. Was lunching with my friend KX today and suddenly she received an sms from her project group mate. I thought she was gonna say something else then she suddenly read out the message and said that the friend of her proj. group mates is interested in the girl who sat beside her in lecture today, and asked if it was possible to know my name. So there's 2. SY and LY. So we asked which one. Apparently they said the tanner one. So that should be me? duh. can't be bothered by all these games. I mean c'mon lah guys, if you are actually interested in anyone, there's a 101 better ways to do it!

Anyway, my name is Ling Ying and i'm quite happily attached.

hai. ugly side of humans, just plain disgusted by you action. totally disappointed. really feel so disgusted! Super sian. Really very very disappointed. Damn gross.

Yucks. just spoiled my mood. just snatched my TV just shouted at me just damn disgusted.

Yucks.

Begin.


1. When do you feel your best?

a) in the morning
B) during the afternoon and early evening
C) late at night


2. You usually walk...

a) fairly fast, with long steps
B) fairly fast, with little steps
C) less fast head up, looking the world in the face
D) less fast, head down
E) very slowly


3. When talking to people you. .

a) stand with your arms folded
B) have your hands clasped
C) have one or both your hands on your hips
D) touch or push the person to whom you are talking
E) play with your ear, touch your chin, or smooth your hair


4. When relaxing, you sit with.

a) your knees bent with your legs neatly side by side
B) your legs crossed
C) your legs stretched out or straight
D) one leg curled under you


5. When something really amuses you, you react with...

a) big appreciated laugh
B) a laugh, but not a loud one
C) a quiet chuckle
D) a sheepish smile

6. When you go to a party or social gathering you...

a) make a loud entrance so everyone notices you
B) make a quiet entrance, looking around for someone you know
C) make the quietest entrance, trying to stay unnoticed


7. You're working very hard, concentrating hard, and you're interrupted..

a) welcome the break
B) feel extremely irritated
C) vary between these two extremes


8. Which of the following colors do you like most?

a) Red or orange
B) black
C) yellow or light blue
D) green
E) dark blue or purple
F) white
G) brown or gray


9. When you are in bed at night, in those last few moments before going to sleep you are...

a) stretched out on your back
B) stretched out face down on your stomach
C) on your side, slightly curled
D) with your head on one arm
E) with your head under the covers


10. You often dream that you are...

a) falling
B) fighting or struggling
C) searching for something or somebody
D) flying or floating
E) you usually have dreamless sleep
F) your dreams are always pleasant



POINTS:

1. (a) 2 (b) 4 (c) 6
2. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c ) 7 (d) 2 (e) 1
3. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 5 (d) 7 (e) 6
4. (a) 4 (b) 6 (c) 2 (d) 1
5. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 3 (d) 5 (e) 2
6. (a) 6 (b) 4 (c) 2
7. (a) 6 (b) 2 (c) 4
8. (a) 6 (b) 7 (c) 5 (d) 4 (e) 3 (f) 2 (g) 1
9. (a) 7 (b) 6 (c) 4 (d) 2 (e) 1
10. (a) 4 (b) 2 (c) 3 (d) 5 ; (e) 6 (f) 1
Now add up the total number of points.

OVER 60 POINTS : Others see you as someone they should 'handle with care.' You're seen as vain, self-centered, and who is extremely dominant. Others may admire you, wishing they could be more like you, but don't always trust you, hesitating to become too deeply involved with you.

51 TO 60 POINTS : Others see you as an exciting, highly volatile, rather impulsive personality; a natural leader, who's quick to make decisions, though not always the right ones. They see you as bold and adventuresome, someone who will try anything once; someone who takes chances and enjoys an adventure. They enjoy being in your company because of the excitement you radiate.

41 TO 50 POINTS : Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well balanced not to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

31 TO 40 POINTS : Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful & practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who's extremely loyal to friends you do make and who expect the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

21 TO 30 POINTS: Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, ext remely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It would really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment, expecting you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then, usually decide against it. They think this reaction is caused partly by your careful nature..

UNDER 21 POINTS : People think you are shy, nervous, and indecisive, someone who needs looking after, who always wants someone else to make the decisions & who doesn't want to get involved with anyone or anything! They see you as a worrier who always sees problems that don't exist. Some people think you' re boring. Only those who know you well know that you aren't.

Just cooked some real good stuff. Campbell mushroom potage with chinese mee sua. wahahaha. Fattening! Came home and snack snack snack. Then finished one whole can of campbell all by myself! boOhoo. I don't want back the fats that i just lost! Ok, i'm so full now.

Ah.. can't believe exams are just round the corner.. about a month more! And i still have so many projects on hand! i'm like so dead, totally. Can't wait to clear them soon, like seriously! argh. Each semester seem to pass by quicker than the previous semesters lo. Stress!!!! haha.. so in a sense, i can't wait for my getaway to UK. (: hees.

Tired. but gonna jiayOu later! after my 'jiu dian feng yun'. hehehe. rocks man. i'm so full so full!

my eye's are so tired! argh i wanna zzz. but i shall continue on the long over-due readings.

Met ?aacaan jeap again today! argh! i so wanna learn thai.. again! i'll make sure i'll continue to keep in touch with thai so i won't forget!! I WILL!!

ok, back to hitting the books, (after TV) now.

seeya folks.

what should i do for my ECY & Space!?

Been really busy these days... with projects and stuffs. yea. It's killing me. I haven't been touching my readings, like seriously. like nothing at all. So gonna die. and yet, for the past few hrs, i've been slacking. Doing NOTHING productive. like *sharks*. haha. Well, talking about productivity, it really depends what kind of productivity you're talking about actually.I have a productive social life? hahaa. Almost 2 yrs in arts has made me wiser and smarter, twisting my arguments so it suits my point of view! oh wow. some great skills we're talking about here yea..

ok,

cleared (handed up): Ge3226 individual proj, 2 Biophysical grp proj, 1 GE2224 presentation.
cleared: RE1805
Pending: RE1804 proj + presentation, GE3226 presentation, Biophysical project, GE2202 proj, and a presentation coming up this Thurs. ARGH i'm dying. so many projects can. 5++!!!

*screams*

I'm tired, yet not so tired. How contradictory. It doesn't help that it's the ladybirds and moths seasons so i may just run for shelter under my blanket amidst my late-night study plan. argh.

Will someone tell me why things turned out the way they did? what's wrong...?

*deafening Silence*

It's close to our 2 yrs now.. It appears to be longer than it seems... These 2 yrs hasn't been easy for us and time really flies... Really hope for things to be better soon, dear. *HuGs* I know i act like i'm okay, but i know somewhere deep inside my heart, i really wish we could have more time, more fun together... more laughter...! (': Wish you would bring me to places we've never been but time never permits.. Of course, thanks for being so cool about my weekly Saturday sessions at JT. Which is in a sense gd, cos you get to spend time with your family and friends too. ((:

** I find that comfort i seek when i look in your eyes and when you hold me so tightly in your arms!

ok enough of these mushy stuff now.. back to books man.

*sharks* like another moth is coming my way. seriously.

Just a little girl in this world, still learning, growing, and experiencing life..
Keeping that little promise and agreement..
trying to be stronger.. ( :

happiness
health
semi-big bag
golden necklace
little miss CLUMSY
more intelligence

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