whatever. i'm just freakin' loser.


happy?

The ' L I T T L E ' Things .

As you might know, the head of a company survived
9/11 because his son started kindergarten.

Another fellow was alive because it was
His turn to bring donuts.

One woman was late because her
Alarm clock didn't go off in time.

One was late because of being stuck on the NJ Turnpike
Because of an auto accident.

One of them
Missed his bus.

One spilled food on her clothes and had to take
Time to change.

One's
Car wouldn't start.

One couldn't
Get a taxi.

The one that struck me was the man
Who put on a new pair of shoes that morning,
Took the various means to get to work
But before he got there, he developed a blister on his foot.

He stopped at a drugstore to buy a Band-Aid. That is why he is alive today.

Now, when I am
Stuck in traffic,
Miss an elevator,
Turn back to answer a ringing telephone ....
All the little things that annoy me.
I think to myself,
This is exactly where God wants me to be At this very moment!

Next time your morning seems to be Going wrong ,

The children are slow getting dressed,
You can't seem to find the car keys,
You hit every traffic light,
Don't get mad or frustrated; It may just be that
God is at work watching over you!

May God continue to bless you
With all those annoying little things
And may you remember their possible purpose.

Pass this on to someone else, if you'd like.

Happy Birthday to me!

Finally found myself again. All thanks to you.. Thanks so much dearie!

No words can ever express the love and gratitude i have towards you... now and forever!! (:

Life's just so wonderful with you around.. Thanks for the wonderful day..



Love u!

dear..

walking home today, and thinking if i could see the same familiar back i saw months ago..

really felt like seeing you, touching your face, giving you a hug, calling you dear, and telling you i love u.

Your coldness sometimes seem like a razor cutting through my heart.. bit by bit.

i guess i really miss your company.. won't be able to have that privilege to call you or to msg you that freely anymore..

taking the bus with an empty seat beside me.. is just lonely. Just wished i could have those shoulders to lean on. and i know i'll have you to hug me when i'm cold. to remove those plasters from my cuts. to kiss me gently on my forehead and the look in your eyes says it all..

gosh, my rashes don't seem to b getting better at all. sigh.


ilu.

oh my goodness!!

i have terrible rashes on my LEGS!!!


**sCreams in HoRRoR!!!***


HELP!!

VIRGO - The Perfectionist
Dominant in relationships. Conservative. Always wants the last word. Argumentative. Worries. Very smart. Dislikes noise and chaos. Eager. Hardworking. Loyal. Beautiful. Easy to talk to. Hard to please. Harsh. Practical and very fussy. Often shy. Pessimistic.


SCORPIO - The Intense One
Very energetic. Intelligent. Can be jealous and/or possessive. Hardworking. Great kisser. Can become obsessive or secretive. Holds grudges. Attractive. Determined. Loves being in long relationships. Talkative. Romantic. Can be self-centered at times. Passionate and Emotional.


LIBRA - The Harmonizer
Nice to everyone they meet. Can't make up their mind. Have own unique appeal. Creative, energetic, and very social. Hates to be alone. Peaceful, generous. Very loving and beautiful. Flirtatious. Give in too easily. Procrastinators. Very gullible.


ARIES ? The Daredevil
Energetic. Adventurous and spontaneous. Confident and enthusiastic. Fun. Loves a challenge. EXTREMELY impatient. Sometimes selfish. Short fuse. (easily angered.) Lively, passionate, and sharp wit. Outgoing. Lose interest quickly - easily bored. Egotistical. Courageous and assertive. Tends to be physical and athletic.
zodiac

AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality.

GEMINI - The Chatterbox
Smart and witty. Outgoing, very chatty. Lively, energetic. Adaptable but needs to express themselves. Argumentative and outspoken. Likes change. Versatile. Busy, sometimes nervous and tense. Gossips. May seem superficial or inconsistent, But is only changeable. Beautiful physically and mentally.

LEO - The Boss
Very organized. Need order in their lives - like being in control. Like boundaries. Tend to take over everything. Bossy. Like to help others. Social and outgoing. Extroverted. Generous, warm-hearted. Sensitive. Creative
energy. Full of themselves. Loving. Doing the right thing is important to Leos. Attractive.

CANCER - The Protector
Moody, emotional. May be shy. Very loving and caring. Pretty/handsome. Excellent partners for life. Protective. Inventive and imaginative. Cautious. Touchy-feely kind of person. Needs love from others. Easily hurt, but sympathetic.

PISCES - The Dreamer
Generous, kind, and thoughtful. Very creative and imaginative. May become secretive and vague. Sensitive. Don't like details. Dreamy and unrealistic. Sympathetic and loving. Kind. Unselfish. Good kisser. Beautiful.

CAPRICORN - The Go-Getter
Patient and wise. Practical and rigid. Ambitious. Tends to be good-looking. Humorous and funny. Can be a bit shy and reserved. Often pessimists. Capricorns tend to act before they think and can be unfriendly at times. Hold grudges. Like competition. Get what they want.

TAURUS - The Enduring One
Charming but aggressive. Can come off as boring, but they are not. Hard workers. Warm-hearted. Strong, has endurance. Solid beings who are stable and secure in their ways. Not looking for shortcuts. Take pride in their beauty. Patient and reliable. Make great friends and give good advice. Loving and kind. Loves hard - passionate. Express themselves emotionally. Prone to ferocious temper-tantrums. Determined. Indulge themselves often. Very generous.

SAGITTARIUS - The Happy-Go-Lucky One
Good-natured optimist. Doesn't want to grow up (Peter Pan Syndrome). Indulges self. Boastful. Likes luxuries and gambling. Social and outgoing. Doesn't like responsibilities. Often fantasizes. Impatient. Fun to be around. Having lots of friends. Flirtatious. Doesn't like rules. Sometimes hypocritical. Dislikes being confined - tight spaces or even tight clothes. Doesn't like being doubted. Beautiful inside and out.

(dear) this is for us.



happy 20th birthday (chinese calender).

i'm so tired! finally finished watching the Australia lecture.. yea.. left with the Canadian one which i can't watch. so irritating lah.. i think i took like over 1.5hrs or more to finish the Aust's one..cos i gotta go back and listen again to certain points. and it's not very fast.. ): anyways, down to project work! countdown countdown!

and i just remembered i have proj meeting on thurs today.. so i gotta get prepared as well. as usual, sotong me, forgot to print computing notes again! argh!! *stabs myself* Oh no!! just printed more readings today lah!! ): boohoo. so dead. argh. jiayou ly jiayou! u've got reading week to buck up!!

it's 3am now. i think i better go now.. all the best, to me.

time's flying past faster than it ought to be.. sigh. can't believe recess week is coming. seems like the sem hasn't even really started. argh. Tons of readings to catch up, tons of readings to do, tons of projects to do, tons of stress to cope with. argh.... why...!!! ) : it's terrible! i need to catch up on so many things!! i'm overwhelmed!!!

**gets gobbled up by the paper giant**

sigh. i shall... remain positive. at least for now. ):


sem 2 sem 2. go slower.

please.








somehow i know it would have been better with you arnd.

baby.. if u still care, would you show me you do?

i know there's so much uncertainty going on in your life.. i just wanna say i really want to help you and be there with you along the way.. i know it's so stressful for you.. and it pains me so much my dear.. you know i still care don't you?

but i don't know about u.. anymore..



**who doesn't wish for a happy ending?**

really wanted to give up today. Was feeling all so giddy today i couldn't even stand up straight. Almost fell onto someone standing behind me. I thought it was my hallucination. but alas! it was not. Just had to carry on.. After chiong-ing to AS7 to print my notes and also the research material from the Migration module. Argh, Just wished icould read faster. and faster and faster.

Managed to gulp down that piece of walnut cake on the way to school.. Thought i would grab something from the canteen but i just felt like vomitting. But still forced myself to finished the 2nd piece of cake while walking to class. Haven't felt so giddy before my head was spinning..

Felt a little better after lecture and saw khun Michelle! love her.!! haha.. ( : And went to eat a really rushed dinner.. saw khun Geraldine, Gloria and another AJ mate. ( :

Finally handed up thai kaanbaan. hope everything goes well. yipee. argh this sem is well busy.. but i guess i just have to learn to cope. being busy ain't a bad thing.. keeps my momentum there.. just hope it won't be too fast for me to catch up!! argh my lectures and Readings!!!!!!! someone!! help!!




*shed tears today again.. though i promised myself never to cry ever again.. oh, how useless i am. sigh.. it's ok.. i'll be fine, soon. ( : thanks neighbour for your cookies and for having that quick rushed dinner!

was talking to my friend.. and realised well, i do have lots to learn about myself still.. ( :

Am i putting up a strong front or have i really learnt to let go? It's just a thin line between the two.. I never really got to express my emotions freely.. cos i guess i can't.. When i'm happy/sad i guess i never really shared with anyone.. cos the kind of joy/sadness.. no matter how well you are with words, you just can't make the other party feel the same as you..

I never mean to show my weakness to anyone else. Cos i never wanted to.. and when i slowly learnt how to.. it was all too late.. too late. I guess i was never understood. My intentions were never fully understood too. But it's ok.. it's all in the past now.. Everyone's gotta fight for the thing they want/love/desire.. but must never forget that since we came with nothing, we'll go with nothing too.. there's no need to be so persistent; to hold on so tightly.. Who says letting go is a bad thing.. If it's ever meant to be, it will.

Argh, been feeling stress, prob the devil in me freaking myself out. I gotta buck up man!

tell me i can! ( :

ain't feeling well. whatever i eat seems to ZOOM past my stomach and out they go. argh. whatever.. was really feeling weak today.. no strength. It didn't help my bag was so heavy and that 2+ KG laptop didn't make things better. hehe. I should learn to be my independent self again... I was late for class.. so late my teacher asked me to join the next.. ) : argh promise i won't be late ever again..thanks ajarn.. ( :


take care and all the best folks. Till then..

this sem doesn't look good. The same old fear slowly, creepily comes haunting me.

why am i studying to make me look stupid? Just so sick, so so sick and so lost now. What am i to do..?

Why am i still studying when the experiences everyday make me feel like a dumbo?

just feel like giving it all up..

there's just somethings that has built up day by day in my mind.. i have no avenue of releasing all that misery/stress/frustration and anger!

wonder if that's affecting my silly tummy. argh.

from today onwards.. i shall learn to stand alone.. i know it's hard.. but i have to..

really love my friends who have been by my side all these while.. love you all... so much.

someone, gimme a sign.

Just a little girl in this world, still learning, growing, and experiencing life..
Keeping that little promise and agreement..
trying to be stronger.. ( :

happiness
health
semi-big bag
golden necklace
little miss CLUMSY
more intelligence

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