Friday, June 11, 2004
living my dull life in a colourful world**
IT SUCKS BIG BIG BIG TIME.WHY CAN’T U ALL TRUST ME AND SUPPORT WHAT I DO? I’M DOING SOMETHING GOOD, AIN’T I? OTHER PEOPLE I’VE SEEN HAVE EXCELLED BECAUSE THEY HAVE SUPORT FROM THEIR FAMILIES. AND YOU ALL ONLY KNOW HOW TO CRITISIZE AND CRITISIZE AND CRITISIZE. I’VE HAD ENOUGH.STOP TELLING ME YOU ALL HAVE GONE THROUGH WHAT I’VE DID. YOU ALL HAVE NOT AND WILL NEVER GO THROUGH THE SAME THINGS I’VE DID. STOP COMPLAINING THAT YOUR LIFE IS WORSE THAN MINE. ARE YOU ME? CAN YOU FEEL WHAT I FELT AND IS FEELING? HOW CAN YOU KNOW FOR SURE? STOP NAGGING! STOP ALL THAT! IT STINGS! YES. JUST WAIT AND SEE HOW I WILL FALL. AND I’LL BE WAITING TO HEAR YOUR LAUGHTERS, AND HEAR HOW U ALL WILL MOCK AT ME..GO ON. I’M NOT AFRAID. IT HAS BEEN LIKE THIS FOR ALL MY LIFE. WHAT DIFFERENCE WOULD IT MAKE IF IT HAPPENS ONE MORE TIME? NO DIFFERENCE AT ALL. IT WOULDN’T EVEN MATTER IF IT WILL CONTINUE ALL MY LIFE. I’M NUMB. SHUT UP. -JUST SHUT UP- i would like to be deaf for a day.
' Fly Away
Friday, June 11, 2004
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
living my dull life in a colourful world**
Hey!!! yes..finally remembered to update my blog..Man...I haven been really productive yet man..my whole mountain of work piling there..SiGH!! besides, i StiLL haVe NYAA Gold to complete! damn sian ya knoW!! It's nOT diFfiCult to dO buT diFficUlt to gEt stArtEd..I'm quite tIrEd la..but i'M reaLLY kEeN to do The NYaA thOugh.ly!! jiayou! ok lalala...Well, SUnday, i WenT to heLp OuT aT a faMily daY oRgaNised bY KaMpuNg cHai CheE CC..waH..tell you lor..it was horrendous!! eVeRytHing wAs iN a mEsS!!! i haD to QueUe 1 hour tO gEt mY foOd whIch waS aBouT 4+pm lor..and kEna sColdEd foR coLlEctIng iN buLk..pLs lor..iF evEryOne of uS ( 100+) wErE to QueuE uP fOr ouR Own fOOd..iT'll bE worSe lor..HAiX. wHateVer. I rEaLLy saW thE uGlY sIde oF SingaPorEanS tHat daY maN.. WheN i aRRiVEd aT the Pick-uP Pt aT thE end Of thE daY, i Saw a Sea of pEopLe sqUeezIng, PUshIng thEir waY through tO gEt Onto tHe busSes. It was sCary! dEn WitH mORe maN poWeR, cRowd ContRol waS bettEr. We fOrmeD hUmaN chaIn and bLocK oUt thE resT oF the cRowEd fiRst..PooR aH-maHs and infants and kids..THey weRe sO tiRed and Hot ya knOw..aNd thEre wEre these 5 'KIND SOULS' wHo cLaImEd thEy hElpEd oUt sINce MorNinG and has a gOoD rEasOn to BE leT to bOaRd thE buS fiRst. Pls,. wE helPed oUt sINce mOrninG too, aNd weRe stiLL helPing. wHat laMe excuses. I told thEm straIght in the face lor.."The elderly and the young are MORE IMPORTANT" really whaT. hAiyOr..jUst kePt oN pUshIng aNd puShing...buay tahan. 5000+ peoPle oNlY the pAthEtic 100 of uS helPing. aND theIr inItiaL plAn waS to gEt tWo peoPle to Hold tHe baNnEr thAt rEads " pick up point" pls lor..how can theY eXpeCt evErythIng to hapPen so OrderLy...5000+ people leh..wo de mai ah. FeEdbaCk wAs bAd alSo..evEryone practically saId tHe daY waS moRe of a qUeing dAy dEn fAmiLy daY aND thAt thEy wOn't JoIn sUch eVents agAin..I have same feelingS maN. sUper JiaLat..JL. OrgAniSe uR oWn beTtEr la. tHe poOr eLderLy weRe neGleCted also. haiyor... was so tired! well well..i gtg liao..do serious stuff den sleep. SiGH>.i gotta start NYAA GOld SoOn! iF noT wiN liaO..wIll nEvEr coMpleTe..vEgE roCks. PluM roCks moRe..35/04, i"m goNnA miSs ya guYS. =)Hm...is it possible at all? iT feEls qUite dUmb anticipating "notHinG" aNd waItiNg aImleSsLy. i admire DEciSiVeneSs, and thE aBiLity to eXpreSs yoUr Own feElinG(s). CHEERS.
' Fly Away
Wednesday, June 09, 2004
