Tuesday, July 29, 2003
living my dull life in a colourful world**
Hi..oh man, it has been such a long time since i logged on..and finally! i'm back..i'm really tired man..as in both physically and mentally.Sigh..my results really sucks..i mean like sometimes i really feel very irritated with myself...i mean there are people who don't work as hard but they can easily score much better than me. ya, i feel unjustified, but what can i do? Life is never fair. There are many times that i really want to give up. And there was once i really gave up on myself. Luckily, i had my friends who picked me up, and i am really grateful to them.Many a time, i often share what i feel to some of my friends. However, often, they are not able to really understand what i feel. i went to the SLP camp ( Service Learning Project ), and what my teacher said is so true. For example, i talk about my failures and i needed couselling. So, this counsellor came along telling me that she understood what i felt and started to counsel me. But she herself has never really experienced my kind of failure. She has got what she wants..This kind of person...i will not listen to. Because, she will never understand me. It's often so easy to tell people to look on the bright side of life, but how many people can actually achieve it?Only now do i realise that being in Secondary 4 is not easy at all, at least that's what i feel. There are people in my school wasting their own time, and even at this point of time, like say 5 more wks to prelims, they do not feel the sense of urgency at all, not concentrating on their studies..while for me, i'm really struggling to find time to do my revision. Alright, i was just taking a break and updating my diary..=x. I do not normally watch TV, i'm so busy studying and preparing for so many tests etc..So stressful!!Well, that's part and parcel of life. Though i am not sure if i will succeed, but i will put in all my effort, and try my very best. Even if i do not succeed, i will not consider it as a failure, but a lesson learnt. At least, i won't have any regrets when i am old. haha..that's all for now..shall end with a quote "You cannot critisize other people's life because you are not in his/her life". How true..seeya then..if anyone even reads this?!luv, Ly
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Tuesday, July 29, 2003
