I'm moving away from this blog...

"ve been a nice time here...

So see you folks! (:

euro trip was fun.

so much happened. but it was fun and worthwhile, nevertheless.

Ling made it back in one piece.

And, i'm officially out of my relationship.

New year, new start.

Great 2009 ahead.

so Cheers.

i'm surprised at myself. 'I' was right. You think that everything else back home will be exactly the same until the time u left, but it seems like you have stopped and the world back home has moved on without you. Or it could be the other way round. Nothing's changed back home, but we're the only ones who have changed!

Interesting. Interesting.

There's so much to go through in SEP. It's like life fast forwarded and compacted into this short period of time.It ain't easy at all. At the end of the day, you evaluate, and think if it was really worth it all... I don't know. Maybe. Probably. I don't know.

Feeling confused, and having really mixed feelings about this SEP and about certain other things... It's so stupid but yet, if things have to happen, they will.

Hope baby's alright... Hope ah 9 will be okay, at least hope that she won't be in pain. Hope baby and his family will take good care of themselves.

Really wonder what are relationships based on, and how they are sustained. And if proximity is really an issue. But then again, if proximity is an issue, what is love? What kind of relationship is that, actually? Don't think it's just superficiality... I don't know. What makes a relationship work? Is it just the sparks or the 'zoo zoo zaa' feeling u get when u fall in love? Does relationship ends if the sparks die down or when you feel no 'zoo zoo zaa' already? I know this is a random thought but it has always been at the back of my mind. Does every relationship goes through the same phases?

Baby, i just wanna say i love you. and i don't want anything to change between us. That's why i'm afraid. I'm so afraid dear. i am. i need you now. right now... I feel like sh*t now love.. i'm so sorry... I know the love i have for you will never change.. Dear i love u.. i love you i love you i love u... i can't say this enough love.

I'm such an idiot.

Everything's been so dramatic since we arrived here in Lufbra, it's almost unbelievable. But life will resume to normal when i get home. (: It will.

Great Britain. I wonder why it is called the 'Great Britain'. Because it is Great??! Hm.. I have many things to say about that man! What is wrong with their dress sense in UK?! It's just... *phoo* I really can't find an apt word to describe it but, hey girls, skimpy isn't nice/sexy/beautiful all the time!! yes, it's the norm, but it's not right! The fashion sense is horrible and it's hard to understand why... Today we saw a girl with back boobs and back cleavage. It's up to your imagination. And what's with all the thick eye makeup! It's alright as long as it's not ridiculously excessive! Look at the ridiculous eye mascara.. and what's with the short flirty skirts and super short shorts and tights/leggings (inclusive of fishnet types?)?? I mean just wear something that can accentuate your figure and what's really acceptable for your body shape... It will make you look so terrible, lah!*shivers down my spine* hurrr.

But it's interesting to see like people of all ages hanging out in a pub. And cafes close so early! Cafes are places to hang out! And they chased us out! everywhere! in the dining hall at DC, Elvyn Richards, and then the Coasta Cafe! what?!@$&*^@$ Unbelievable. We talked of buying a house for DC 50 then hiring the chinese lady, who goes 'Excuse me, may i have your trays back please, if you have finished'? LOL!

It's perkele cold. gotta take a shower now.

ciao~

gosh, we had fun laughing/mocking the french actions and the words are so hard to pronounce!!!! lol!

Amsterdam tmr! gosh!!! it's TMR!!!!!!!! hopefully i don't forget anything...

love you all,
Ling (;

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Is it just me or what? Feeling insecure all the time!

WHY!?

Can't wait to get back home to help out at my mom's shop. She looks so skinny. ):

And i can't wait to see my baby, offline, soon! just 8 weeks! 8!

counting down.

but first, assignments. Tentatively, i've got 3 left. waiting for one more to come. baaahhh. LY!!!! you can! perservere!!!!

damnit. set the question so hard, for what!

argh.

it's 4.15am now. gonna take a shower before starting on my readings for prac. argh!

damnit!

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Back from london!

Finally finally finally. I went to London. 3 days 2 night's just not enough. There's too many things to see and to do in London! Such a vibrant and busy city... Love it. Reminds me of home. The crowd, Double deckers, Tube etc etc etc.

Day 1

Went London with 2 other friends first, in the morning. No seats for us so we stood all the way to London. Didn't feel like it was a long journey though.. It was just an hour and a half's ride and we were happily chatting away till London. Can't believe trains are still so manual in the UK. On some trains, you've gotta pull down the window, put your hand out of the window to reach for the handle outside and open the door to get out!! Strange but funny. Finally got to London!!!!!!

Head off to French Connection Sample Sale. Oh gosh, there was a queue and it was raining! And while waiting to get in, people getting out were lugging huge bags of clothes, as if they were free. I swear, the bags were huge. There was this lady with 3 bags full, crossed the road, threw it all in her car and drove off. Wow. I wish i could do that too. =p My first sample sale!!! Gosh, it was fun shopping in that massive warehouse. I didn't manage to get any guy clothings. Cos not very nice and the sizes are very big.

Bought a turtleneck+longsleeve for mom and another for sister. I didn't realise it looks so nice when you put it on! should have bought more! The only thing about this sale was that there was absolutely no trying at all. So you just gotta estimate and buy. I bought a denim mini tube dress for myself for 25pounds. It's a steal cos it's damn cute and damn nice! can't wait to wear it when i'm back home! hee. I've always wanted something like that, so i guess to splurge on that wasn't such a bad choice huh. ;) Then bought something for my niece. Hope she can fit into it. hee. If not.. we'll wait till some other nieces can fit into that. =p

Then headed off to our hostel to check-in and also to meet Jouni. Damn. Never seen anything more disorganized. First, we realised that it wasn't the Bestplace that we were going to stay and that it was some Hyde Park Inn Hostel near the Baywaters tube. Then finally, after a long queue, we realized that there was going to be a 5% charge if we used our credit cards to pay for everyone. So I and i had to walk down the whole street to find an Abbey to cash out money. Then we got a friend to find the number for the Bestplace hostel so we can call to cancel, but then no, she said she couldn't find the number to call. I hope they don't charge to his card. If they do, we're so going to split the cost. Why were we told that it was at 'bestplace' hostel!? I can't figure it out. Should have checked properly before anything else man. ): Anyway, we got it settled and went to to have pasta at an Italian Restaurant. We didn't eat the whole day and were just happy enough to settle anywhere near. Food was good and i actually ate 1.5 plates of pasta. Cos P couldn't finish hers. lol.

Then went to walk along Oxford street/Bond street/Picadilly Circus etc etc. Wow. Amazing.No shopping malls, only those walk in shops and they are MASSIVE. massive massive massive. As if everyone was like a flagship store. And interestingly, the shops along the whole stretch repeats itself several times, so you'll never have to worry if you miss shops. Then we met the rest to have dinner. We had Chinese. Wasn't too bad but not fantastic. I had hot and sour soup cos i was still so full after the pasta. Jouni was so funny. Ordered squid and assorted pig organs. lol. It was really funny. Finnish man really eat everything/every kind of meat. lol.

Then we hung out at a pub before making our way to the tube. While waiting.. the train was delayed. And eventually cancelled, because of 'man under train'. I figured out it was probably a nice way to say someone died on the tracks. How can any man survive under a train?! Unless it was some action pac movie where they manage to hide in the gaps and survive. ha. scary. So we gotta make a damn big round to get to where we wanted to go.

Rest went back while the 3 guys and I went around pubs to chill. I didn't drink, but i just wanted to maximize my time here and so have fun with them. (: It was nice. I didn't regret.

Day 2

Woke up to check out. Breakfast was hm.. just toast. Couldn't say it was good or bad but oh well, it's just toast. And so we went down to Portobello Market and it was kinda fun! But i didn't have enough time to browse through everything properly but yea, it was quite cool. Markets are everywhere in this country. Then i bought oranges. I thought it was 3 for a pound. And she gave me a bag for a pound. ): I had no shopping bag and just lugged this bag of oranges everywhere. Portobello market was our first stop. damn. Bought cute wallets for my sister and myself. hee. cute. love it. Then we went sight seeing. Saw london eye and Big Ben, and of course River Thames. Didn't have time to cover many other places but i'll be back in dec/jan so i think i'll finish up my sightseeing then. (: There was like public perf + xmas market on the way, it was real cool. So many talented people around, and so eager to show. Love how people just perform in tube stations. THey are damn talented.

Went Soho and also in the end we decided to catch Jools Holland's gig. It's awesome! Even though I admit to falling asleep at different points of time, it was really good. And we paid some 15.50 quid for it. Cool. Totally worth it, not to mention that Royal Albert Hall has such beautiful theatres. It's so grand and huge. Nice. Went to Leicester Square and then we settled in another Italian Restaurant again. I had onion soup while the rest ate. I was full. But had some of I's pasta. It's amazing how people are so stingy while others are so generous and easy. No offence but that's just a fact. Met Felix in the restaurant too. He thought we were going to hang out some more, but we were really exhausted. So we headed back home. on a 24hr bus. cool! (:

Day 3
Woke up, settled check out, got back deposits went for breakfast then headed to King's Cross. Train was delayed at some stations and i was almost late for my train. Ran all the way and had only 2 minutes left before train departed. Thank god the doors were still open and i could get in. Peace finally. Got a seat in the quiet cabin and slept all the way to Leicester before taking a 'rail replacement' - Bus back to Loughborough Station, and then back to school. Home sweet home. With my Oranges.

Met a South African girl in the hostel. She's so funny. Got her facebook too. (: cool. Love meeting new people. New random nice people. haha.

Would say... this London trip really was fun and worth it. And it is also from this trip that we can see the different personalities too. Great experience.

Can't wait to get back to London. And more sales by then, please!!

Had Thai dinner yesterday, at a shop owned by Malaysian. Funny. But he introduced us to a cab driver who apparently doesn't have very high charges. Might go up to Edinburgh if the price is right too. ;) Going to travel everywhere LY. So environmentally unfriendly hurrr. -_-! Tim 'pang-seh-ed' us! So gonna kill him on wed! haha. Just joking. Missed class today. Was too tired. too tired. Was talking and doing random things online in I's room till 7am in the morning can! crazy.

Finally got one more practical down. You can do it LY. just one more prac and 2 more essays for the next Friday.

Almost decided when to get home. Just need confirmation from London Office. They're kinda slow. I hope things speed up.

till then..~


tata!


By the way!! Ryan air rocks!! 15pounds for return trip to Paris! wOohOo! ;) going. 2nd jan-7th jan 2009.

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Just know i'm always a step slower than others.. But at least at the end of the day, i get my job done. I guess that's enough for me. (: I'm easily contented. Just wish i can work faster. I'm really not smart. But i'm a hardworker, and i put in my best.

Baby never fails to put a smile on my face. Feel really happy to have him with me. Big friendly giant he is. Been smiling to myself because i really feel loved. My silly baby. Was just talking about relationships over dinner today. It suddenly struck me... Can love possibly survive without money when reality seeps in, creeps into your life and overtakes the love between two people...? It really isn't easy is it? Why is money always a problem? If trying to 'find' money is such a problem, why do people even bother to solve this almost impossible problem their whole life? I know we can't live without money.. but neither can we, without love!

Oh, such precious love. We've come this far together. It wasn't easy. And we almost lost each other on the arduous journey. I love him, and i know he loves me too. Trust is our foundation. Communication is a key. All thanks to baby who has been ever patient with me, holding on tight to us, and never letting go no matter how stubborn i was. It took so much courage, patience and of course fate to get to this far. And i wonder. Will we ever have to quarrel over money issues? Will we ever regret? To me, there are no regrets in life. It all depends on one's perspective. Life itself is a challenge. No matter which path you choose to take, you should always be brave about it, and live it to the fullest. And no matter what happens, you should be happy that it happened, and learn from lessons. It's hard but that's life huh.

I love my family, and so do i love baby and his family. I just hope the day where we can openly date each other will come very soon.

Working on my pracs now. baaah. i hate excel! haha.. feel really stupid with numbers. argh. Why did i even take this module in the first place! It's interesting but not the pracs!!! argh!!

And i want my grades for the last pracs!!!!! if i fail, i'll.. i'll be real upset. haha. let's see.

All the best to the NUS folks back home! See you guys in a couple of wks really! (:

tata~

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Yet another day without having my meals in dining hall. Just went out for lunch in town again with Tim and Carm this afternoon, sat down at a little cafe and chill. So nice to just relax and do nothing. But i know there's work piling up man. Man, i have to start somehow! i've got 4-1.25pages work to do so i better get started. It's like Arial 12 and 1.5 spacing so hm. that's not really alot huh. Is that good or bad??!

Went down to hand up my 50% coursework today and i'm keeping my fingers crossed. Really put in some real effort into it so hopefully we'll see it in the grades man. *fingers crossed* I know i just need to pass.. but i'll really like to see how much i'll be able to do for that paper. Then i went to collect my grades. And it wasn't there! No! i checked 3 cupboards and they weren't there! How can it be man! c'mon.......... hurr. Emailed my lect. hopefully we'll hear something from them soon. I just wanna know my grades man.

It's pretty warm today.. i think it's been almost 10dg the whole day, calm weather, not much wind and no rain at all. (: great. keep it that way.

Did i say i went to Nottingham Night Market? It's really really cool! It was more like a German one but it's awesome. Even for someone like me who doesn't drink, i drank this warm cherry wine that was absolutely awesome. especially in the cold weather.. So i guess it sorta justify my act of drinking but i got this really pretty cup too. (: I tried this Mushrooms with garlic sauce on top of it and potatoes. Boy, it was the best, and i mean seriously the BEST EVER!! I was really thrilled and so touched to taste something so awesome! That chef probably thought i was crazy cos i was smiling, dancing and hopping around with my food, right in the middle of the streets. But he's real nice, he got me to try this picked 'cucumber' thing to go with potatoes and it was awesome as well! Even said bye to me. ;) love that. When i go Germany, i'm so gonna find this again!! If only i can do a takeaway!!!! Bought a shirt for my bro. hope it fits. it's from zara! and i love it.

I had a superb weekend. Went on a road trip for 2 days. It was awesome. I did mountain climbing, with no proper gear/equipment, almost fell to my death and yea, it was awesome. View was great, and i finally felt SNOW!!! Just a little bit but that's my first experience with snow in the mountains!!! It was beautiful. Photos are up on facebook already.. Will do it soon on photobucket. I had like some 743 photos/videos for these 2 days. The view was just so pretty, you couldn't resist taking more pictures of it. I love it. I'm not sure if i'll ever be there again, but it's really a very gd place to go to. Snowdonia and Peak District.

Ling Ling is officially broke. B-R-O-K-E. Just charged some 200+ Euros to my credit card, cos if i charge them to my debit card here they'll charge extra, i'd rather pay by credit card then. And i'm so so so so freakin' broke. Phew. Now i can't wait to get employed and start paying back all that i've got from my mom and my sis. I feel so bad i'm the only one enjoying while they're back home.. ): Trip's almost settled.. More or less. So it's gonna be

December
14-17th - Amsterdam
17th to 22nd - Copenhagen
22nd to 24th - Stuttgart
24th to 26th - Venice (xmas here!)
26th - 28th - Rome
28th - Back in East Midlands (Loughborough) then back to London

Then in January,
4th to 6th - Paris

That's it. But i'm so gonna die. budget budget. sucks. ): But i really want to travel............. But that's just gonna be it for this trip i guess. It's enough. (: I'm overspending. And i'm still going london next wk. Damn.

*worried*

I'll talk to sis tmr.

Gonna shower now.. it's past midnight here. hehe.

seeya folks! Kinda miss everything back home sometimes! (:

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